Neutron Star Collision

In brackets - Love is Forever by MUSE !
This song would be one of the soundtracks for Twilight : Eclipse - Cant wait for this to come ! ;)

So i was just thinking about the sudden strike of fear i had yesterday when i thought of looking up the lyrics for this song.
It's interesting how this event went - but really? now i'm looking at signs? pathetic, girl. x)

I was searching you were on a mission

Then our hearts combined like a neutron star collision

I have nothing left to lose

You took your time to choose

Then we told each other with no trace of fear that

Our love would be forever

And if we die, we die together

Well i, i said never

Cause our love would be forever

Now i've got nothing left to lose

You take your side to choose

I can tell you now without a trace of fear

That my love will be forever

And we'll die, we'll die together

Will i, i will never

Cause our love will be forever

Note : That's not the complete lyrics, just the few lines where i'm trying to magnify my point.

I ask myself, still scared?
Yes, very.

holding hands will fall.

another similar day as the day before, and before that and before that.
can my holidays be anymore boring? i havent even started all the important things which meant only this - homework and STUDY !
so far my days were devided to these ;
1. Band
2. Piano
3. Sleep
4. Lying on the bed reading or texting or just waiting for drowsiness to overcome me.

Really, i am soo in need of a self wake up call - though that would mean a really bad event. x_x




I am positive there is just something in the past that you'd rather not go through again.
Let alone let it appear in your life again.
In my case, well, at first i thought i would feel nothing.
But then, later i felt like i had this old wound in my heart suddenly feeling sore again.
I was like, huh, never thought i was hurt that much. i guess i really did like you.
And people wonder why is it hard for a person to fall for someone completely again.
The danger of getting hurt again? Well that's just something i'd rather not risk.

A penny for your thoughts?

I'm scared. I dont know why.
I feel shaken to the core. I don't know why.
I need you, I still dont know why. or who for that matter. :(

i'm surrounded by liars everywhere i turn

i'm surrounded by impostors everywhere i turn

i'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere i turn

i'm the only one who's noticed

i can't be the only who's learned

i don't wanna be anything other than what i've been trying to be lately

all i have to do is think of me and have peace of mind

i'm tired of looking 'round rooms wonder what i gotta do

or who i'm supposed to be

i don't wanna be anything other than me.

Strength.

I am totally beat today.
My energy level is decreasing i tell you, and believe me, if i sleep early before my supposed sleeping time, i'll get overslept, and that would lead to a day-long headache.
So i'd rather be tired then suffer pain. -_-"


Today, we received grave news.
I may not be close to this friend, but no normal person wouldnt feel heartthrobbing sorrow when they hear of a child losing their mother.
Sedekahkanlah surah Al-fatihah kepada ibu dayah, semoga rohnya dicucuri Rahmat Allah SWT.
Let's pray for her family and herself to receive unshakable strength, patience and love.


Death is never an easy thing to accept, but holding hands through it, make it close to bearable.
 

6th June

Yes yes, i know, im a lil late. ;D
but still, mcm budak tuh bce ponn. 
haa, what's 0606?
it's the most-devilish-girl-i-love-in-my-life's birthday , Irra Hazirah Rossid !
hee, we had our terrible quarrels, bad moods, pillow fights, backkicks and slaps,
but at last, we are connected by blood. so i cant get rid of you no matter what XD
dear irra,
even if you cant fit into the shirt i bought you - GEMOKK - it can be your pjs, be happy !

luv ya, weirdo :)

side odders :

sorry, been a busy day dearest.

hope you dont get tired of waiting for me :(

adore youu <3

Adventure is out there !

I just watched UP !
Im gonna be 17 but i love cartoons so wutevs to people thinking cartoons are bogus around this age.
just because you're old, doesnt mean you cant watch cartoons.
it's always nice to watch cartoons like up, sweet, romantic, sad, funny !

I laughed unstoppably during that movie and teared up at the sad scenes.

moral of the cartoon - if you ever get a guy like mr sam frederickson, dont let him go ! ;D <3

so it's the holidays now though it doesnt feel like it to me.

i feel awfully claustrophobic, badly in need of a time out from kaytee.

i dont have much to complain, i love being around friends, the hillarious stuff we get into and all.

but i get bored when there's abs nil to do.

we had to cancel our plans to go to the funfair tonight due to lack of members of the gang.

so that's how i came to watch UP. ;)

Abah : Not going?

Me : Nope. No one can go.

Abah : Want to go?

Me : Whoaa ! Abah want to go?

Abah sengehh

Irra : Cannot ! I want to watch UP !

ngeh3..

so up we did.

adek ally iskandar :D

quick entry;

before terlupe nak tulis,
smlm, si azie nge ifa neh gy la kat pondok teratai, konon nk jupe dak2 wakil yg msok IU Day nnti.
skli sorg pon tak dtg. ehh lupe, ade, JIJI ! ;)
kes pengawas tak buat pengumuman punye pasal laa..
free jepp org bengang2 tym buat est2, hahahh, maaflah ekh sespe yg kne cursed abes2n tym ambe duk mengelamun mase itamkan jawapan tuh..x)
ehh balek cter tadi,
jupe la adek ally iskandar, pendek, tp ensem - aishh, ape start menggataii nehh. tsk3
pstu duk mood gle kowt,
gy la conteng2 kat papan puteh 5B tuh, skli lupe sal tuh,
tcher Ruzi Bio tuh masok, bce bnde alah tu.
dye komen pe bnde ntah,
x embarassed pon, x merah pon muke.
nasib segelintir saje taw,
dan tak gtaw tcher.
EH SYG KORG ! ;D


haa, ehh ! dah lambat, gy practice band! - ponteng kelas pok jakk!
bye darls !

And I wanna fall in love with you again

Yeahh ! I still have one more paper to go which requires nil studying ! - i think.
It kinda sucks having one more paper, and having extra classes, and having to stay back at school until 6 when what i need badly is to snuggle up on the sofa in front of the tv drinking whatever refreshing beverage watching Reversal of Fate after school.
Oh well, that's my life people.
Today had not been the best day for me.
I woke up with a stabbing pain on the side of my neck.
Ever experienced that? Uncomfortable eyh?
Anyways, i suffered from it the whole day - until now ! :( totally hating it.
Then, there was the whole do nothing day, slept in the surau, feeling like crap and band.
Being home at last felt so amazing, words cannot describe it - hah ! exaggerating ! x)

It's funny how I am restless when not hearing from you,

but speechless when i do.

What's going on really?

Guess that's why Jason Castro's Let's Just Fall In Love Again is currently my fave. hee~

I am craving to go out, anywhere is fine. I just wanna hang out.

But clearly, everything is not on my side right now.

So, i just have to be really really patient.

Well that's enough scribbling for today,

Rachel : I knew you'll break my heart.

Jesse : That's the thing about reputations, people always think that i'm the one breaking hearts. But the thing is Rachel, you broke mine first.