Friday, December 31, 2010

under construction :)

this blog is currently undergoing a new makeover process.

in conjunction with new year kan ? hahah.
which reminds me, i still havent thought of a new name for this blog . :|

humming ; speak now - taylor swift ;)

dear 2010 :)

in a while, we are to say goodbye to glorious 2010.
somehow, i feel not much anticipation for 2011. it's difficult, seeing as 2010 could easily be the best year of my school life.

so many many new things i've learned. being an SPM candidate, so much pressure, so much fun. last year of school, feeling excited yet very sad.
i had loved learning, but at the same time loathing it, imagine, now i am practically missing doing addmaths, hahahh.

i have lost so much, and yet gained a lot.
i have lost people i loved with all my heart, but also found more people to love :)
i am leaving probably the best era in my life - being a school kid - and i am now at the entrance to the real world - like literally, im starting to go through applications for colleges, scholarships, etc.
i suppose ending school meant there would be some people i would not see ever again. but life is like that, you meet people, and you have to say goodbye at some time.

ohh, i feel like crying thinking that 2010 is to go. hee :')

i want to thank every single person who has definitely made 2010 so beautiful for me.
from my besties, to my classmates, to my teachers, and my family, thank you thank you thank you for the pretty memory album of 2010 for me.
 thank you, for loving me as i love you :)

if i could, i would write everything that happened in 2010, but well, that's highly unlikely to happen ;) so im just gonna settle with this.

goodbye year 2010, let's hope as 2011 is as amazing as you were. 

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Little Girl's Request

Wth is this ? em, well, kind of like my wishlist. things i want to get for me-self or do during these long dayss ;D

- necklace ! dari hari tuh carik. heheh. not those huge heavy long chain types, the ones that you cant see me wearing. hahaha !

- taylor swift's speak now album . sukeee ;)

-  house of night ; burned -- nak nak ! i need to know how the freaking story ends !!

- a new phone ? please please pleasee -- and not just any phone. BB torch ahh , hahaha ! demand sot ;)

- get new sneakers :)

- exercise ! sh*tt ! im freaking out of shape. just now we walked on the beach, and in a few seconds, were out of breath. hahaha !

- workk. yes yes, i need money ;)

- license ! biar tak suke gle3 gy situ. ngn org2 jakun gle pandang org mcm tk penah nmpk org. i wore clothes right ?! or did i look like an alien ? sheeshh !
i still need my effing license. huh, dhla kne wat motor, gle waste of time ;)

- lepakk lah. ngn mereka2. rinduuu :')
- meet up with old friends perhaps. lots of catching up to do :)

- my own laptop pleasee ? ;)

- find notes to current fave songs to play on piano. :D which reminds me, the piano needs a lot of tuning. my fave note ; G - lower G lah tapi - is stuck :(

- watch a whole lot of movies. hahaha

anything else? maybe i'll think of it again :)



Tuesday, December 28, 2010

say what ?

while everyone is already behind the wheel, i'm just starting to go to the 6 hours talk which i'd probably get nothing from.
sucks weyh, dahla tkde geng ;(
today today,
i dont know, cam takde mood.


sy tension kat rumah. :'(

my only reason to smile is you

Sunday, December 26, 2010

so long, goodbye :)

finally, home - an expression of relief and sadness. :)

already missing smue budak2 yg besstt tuhh. not a complete day without laughing til our stomachs hurt during the trip.
with a few kilometres more to go in the bus, ktorg smue kate, patah balik lahh, tkmoh balek gy.
haha, bez gler trip nehh.
it's very possible that im not gonna see some of them ever again, i shall miss them all :) -- biar ade yg sy tk knal pon hehehe ;D

kamu smue best teramatt! <3

Friday, December 17, 2010

out of town !

going to kl later, until 27th. longgg huh ?

joining awok2 yg gy lwtn on 22nd. 
sad coz i cant be on the bus with you people -- aziema sy mntak maaf ;)
ever realised that in a trip, some of the most best moments are on the bus, when you're on the way to somewhere. heee~
so im bummed that i have to miss it.
oh well, have a safe journey dearests. :)

dinner date :)

17th Dec :)

Due to the fact that we'll be having a busy day tomorrow, - 18th Dec - Abah decided to celebrate my Mommy's birthday just now.
Hence, the dinner date.

And i mean, date, literally.

we went to Permai Inn since my mom was interested in watching the live band. so the place was not bad. besides the fact that there's little choice, the food was satisfying.
i especially lovee my dad's tall ais kacang ! partly because he gave the ice cream part to me ;D

then, my dad started to give requests to the band, yelah, sempena his wife's bday.
and eventually, the band played their song - Nothing's Gonna Change My Love For You - George Benson

what did i tell you about the date, huh ?

in a way, it was sweet to see my parents all excited - and all loveydovey with each other - about their song.
hahah, iloveyou both.

Happy Birthday Mommy ! :)


Wednesday, December 15, 2010

potato couch !

sheesshh ! i'm so damn bored. there's nothing to do. i mean i'd love to go out and stuff, but i wont have a ride, or a freaking place to go in fact.
what do people do after spm ?
i'm like onlining 24/7, but i'm not in front of the laptop, instead slouched on the couch flipping through channels on the tv. seriously? this is what my life comes to ?
ugh ugh. just get over here 22nd. i need an outing from this town ;)

imma thinking of changing this blog's name. but i have like, nil ideas. sighs.

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

i can take care of myself ;)

EST is out of my life !
 -- that is until the results come out next year.
but still, out of my life ! ;)

i am officially not a SPM Candy '10 anymore, and officially an ex-student.
feels weird, no, scratch that, feels like nothing. nothing feels different. 
i still feel like my old immature 17-year-old-self.
oh well, can't wait for many fun times heading my way. cheers !

reason for title ; emm just trying to make a statement.

si kuneng :)

esok 15th esok 15th !

EST weyhh, i'm so filled with dread. what with the fact i dont know wth to study !
all i can do is hope, and grip my pen tight tomorrow - when i'm nervous my fingers are all tingly and numb heee ;)

oh well, tomorrow shall be my last day as si kuneng ! -- my last time wearing my kuneng uniform.
gonna miss this. si kuneng's all grown up :)


Sunday, December 12, 2010

experience is a brutal teacher.

i've never been one to have a lot of patience. 
as i typed these words, anxiousness bites me and the knowledge of having to wait one more day tortures me in the most uncomfortable way.
15th December could not have possibly come any slower - not that i look forward to it head on, there is always that sadness, looming over you.

the last paper will signify the point where i am no longer called a schoolgirl.
i have to grow up, watch myself now, not always relying on someone wiser, braver or stronger to be there to make sure i shan't stray from my path.

i can take care of myself, can i ?

there are so many things that i have now, that i treasure, never once wanting to let go of my grip on them. 
question is, are they real? or are they just masquerading, lulling me into a false sense of security. how can one ever be sure ?
but then i thought, no one's ever sure. we just have to put ourselves out there, so experience can be our teacher now.

so i'll wear my uniform for probably the last time on the 15th, sadly, and happily.

beautiful years, they were.
even if i had my worst crying fits.
even if i had seen people walk away from me.
even if i thought i could never heal from some wounds.
but they are the years that made me who i am now.

and i am truly, undoubtedly, grateful.

i dont know what exactly prompted me to write this. maybe just checking if i had gone a little rusty ?

wish me luck for EST :)

"Experience is a brutal teacher. But we learn. My God, we learn." - C.S.Lewis

Saturday, December 11, 2010

And I'll say just fine

I dont really care what most people say, Taylor Swift's songs are still superbly sweet and meaningful. They're like something you want to tell someone else, but just couldnt find the right words.
So screw all critics, her new album have some rocking songs ;)
note ; I'm not so sure if this song is really in her album Speak Now.

 Superman - Taylor Swift

Tall dark and superman, he puts papers in his briefcase and drives away
To save the world or go to work- it's the same thing to me
He's got his mothers eyes, his fathers ambition
I wonder if he knows how much that I miss him
I hang on to every word you say, and you smile and say how are you?
And I'll say just fine.
I always forget to tell you I love you. I'll love you forever

I watched Superman fly away
You got a busy day today
Go save the world
I'll be around
And I watched superman fly away
Come back I'll be with you some day
I'll be right here on the ground
When you come back down

Tall, dark and beautiful, he's complicated, he's irrational
But I hope someday he'll take me away and save the day, yeh
Something in his deep brown eyes has me saying,
He's not all bad like his reputation
And I can't hear one single word they say.
You'll leave, got places to be and I'll be OK
I always forget to tell you I love you
I loved you from the very first day


And I watch you fly around the world
And I hope you don't take some other girl
Don't forget, don't forget about me
I'm far away but I never let you go
I'm love struck and looking out the window
Don't forget, don't forget where I'll be
Right here wishing the flowers were from you,
Wishing the card was from you wishing the call was from you
'Cause I've loved you from the very first day


When you come back down

Thursday, December 9, 2010

acting ;)

saye bajet saye habes dah spm ! :)

first tyme kot, time jawab soalan akaun rase benci yg meluap-luap.
haihh akaun 2, napelaa ko wat kusut otak ambe ?
i'm kinda really relying on my akaun 1 now, since hopefully, i scored it.

if i dont get a good grade for accounts,
i wont be able to apply for what i want in the near future :'(
huh, ibu pujuk lam kete tadi, nanges kott hahaaa.

oh well.
please God, soften the hearts of our examiners. :)

Monday, December 6, 2010

just , don't :(

funny, i thought coming close to the end of spm, nothing could make sad.
i'm proven wrong, happy now ?

so the past is not important enough.
we're so different with each other now.
you've changed? or was it me ?
i dont know. i really dont.
if you really want nothing to do with me, - us - anymore. just say the word.
we can be complete strangers.

saya tahu saya salah, saya tahu awak marah dengan saya tapi saya tak tahu kenape.
saya mntak maaf.

nice knowing you :(

acid and bases ?

yes yes yes !
chemy is overr ;))
the subject i freaking least like, hahahh
tapi bez la pulak jwab tadii. hahahh masehh pokjakk. spot smue kene ! like tirah said, " takkan tak caye pokjak ? "
hahaa. i believe i believe ! ;)

goodbyee chemyy ! <3

Saturday, December 4, 2010

jeng3 !

why why ?


yes ! souvy2 ! -- mcm abah pndai jee shopping -_-"

abah called a couple days ago,
he said it was snowing in france - ugh jealous ;( - and he was freezing and impatient to be in hot malaysia.
hurm, though i wont say malaysia's that hot now.
ugh, cold all the time, i wear my fave hoodiee every minute - ceyh, exaggerating !

3.30 pick up abah kat airport nnti !

ifa rindu abah ! :)

Thursday, December 2, 2010

15th, please please come quickly:)

yes yes, SPM is soo not done yet.
i have 3 papers left though.
Chemy, Acc and EST ! im kinda tired of the books now, so taking a break. hee~
all my previous papers, well not bad. but i cant say A+ is in my hands. :(
well, i did my best, just hope it was enough.

recent quote found and liked !

Chuck Bass : Dont leave. Everybody leaves.