I've tried.

I've tried.
Really.
To stop liking you.
To stop falling.
To slap some sense into myself.
So I'd forget you.
So you'll just be a person I knew.

I've tried to forget your smile.
Your words.
How happy you make me.
How your patience makes me fall harder.
No matter how ridiculous I get.
You tell me you love me.
I've tried to forget. To ignore.
To tell myself they're lies.
But they're not.
That's how sure I am of you.
That I know you're not lying.
That I know I fall anyway.
For whatever you say.

I've tried to walk away.
So many times.
It's not because of what you think always.
Please, no.
Don't blame yourself.
It's me.
I get so scared.
So scared that I've lost control.
That I can't let go now.
So scared.
Because I know.
It'll hurt too much to be without you.

It's a short time.
Really.
Compared to our lives.
It's a short time, how long we've been together.
But already,
I can't imagine going on without you.
Without that person who'll always try to cheer me up.
Even though he fails.
But not always.
You always make me feel better.
Just by being there.

I've tried.
To say goodbye.
I don't suck at saying them.
I suck at handling the aftermath.
They cut me to the core. Those words.
I don't want to say goodbye.
I pray for us.
I pray you'll be accepted.
Like the moment I accepted you.

I've tried to stop loving you.
I did.
But it's no use.
It'll take divine intervention.
But whoever we meet, is already a divine intervention.
I hope that we stay.
That we last.
That we're meant to be.

I've tried. To believe.
But in the end.
It all comes down to hope.
And to, waiting, and seeing.

Here's to the past.
To the future.
And here's to the now.
My now.
You.
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Buried

She screams. But no one hears. Not a sound. Not a peek. No one hears her screams.
She drowns. She burns. She's lost, there's no return.
But no one saves her. Not in time, that is.
Because no one knew.
That this girl needs saving.
She was good at that.
Hiding.
Smiling.
Pretending.
Til the point she's just too broken.
But everybody couldn't figure it out. Why? How? When?
Why ?
Even she couldn't answer that.
How ?
No. There's too many answers to that.
When ?
There's no exact time.
But it feels as if.
She had always been broken.
A broken doll, all along.

She patches herself up.
She stitches her wounds.
But they are sore. They sting. They're the cause of her pain.
She grew up alone. Surrounded by people. But felt alone nonetheless.
Doesn't mean she wants to be alone.
These people.
Around her.
Can't they see her ? Can't they help her ? Save her.

She's too gone.
Too lost.
Too broken to be saved.

She buries her words.
Buries her pain.
Her dreams.
Her love.
Her heart.
She buried herself.

Broken Arrow - The Script

This time he's gonna wear an iron suit
This time she's gonna fix her heart and make it bullet proof
He says he's gonna take a bite from the forbidden fruit
She says never never bite more than you can chew
But this time he's not gonna be another could've been
This time she's gonna get real, love the skin she's in
She says a winner never quits, quitters never win
She said this time that she is built to face anything
This time he's gonna step for who he is
This time she's gonna live to work, she's not working to live
He says just because you say it's true, it don't mean it is
She says it seems too good to be true, well then it probably is
This time he's hell bent yeah he's heaven bound
This time she's gonna pick herself up no more breaking down
He says he's gonna turn the wheel, turn this sh*t around
She says if he's looking for love then she don't want to be found

When you shoot across the sky like a broken arrow
It's so hard to keep yourself on the straight and narrow
When you shoot across the sky like a broken arrow
It's all I've got
Yeah when you hit the ground
It's hard to get to heaven when your falling hell bound

This time he's gonna make it to the aftermath
This time she's gonna raise her head choose the righteous path
He said one day we will look back and it will make us laugh
She said better to have and not need, than to need and not have
No matter what the cause it's better to have loved and lost
Have you ever met a man who never loved at all?
Yeah the higher they are the bigger they fall
You have to choose something cuz you can't have it all
No, he's not gonna be the last to the finish line
She said even losers get lucky sometimes
He says it's gonna get better like a fine wine
She says it's harder to smell the roses when the sun don't shine
This time he's gonna find another way
This time she's gonna take you to the good ol'days with no ,.gracing
Only warm embraces with the two little sweet angels with dirty faces

When you shoot across the sky like a broken arrow
It's so hard to keep yourself on the straight and narrow
When you shoot across the sky like a broken arrow
It's all I've got
Yeah when you hit the ground
It's hard to get to heaven when your falling hell bound

Every break, every burn, every toss, every turn, every sin,
anything you've learned all programed
Every break, every burn, every toss, every turn, every sin,
everything we've learned all programed

When you shoot across the sky like a broken arrow
It's so hard to keep yourself on the straight and narrow
When you shoot across the sky like a broken arrow
It's all I've got
Yeah when you hit the ground
It's hard to get to heaven when your falling hell bound