Monday, March 29, 2010

all the small things

next week,
budak2 f5 target ne smue gy lembah bidong and imtiaz.
superAzie mestilah pegyy..
dye g kat LB tuh aa.
sdeyhh pulakk :(
aziema, will miss you !

ceyh, mcm azie sorg jep pegy . x)

of broken hearts,
i hope you heal,
no blood bath was ever meant,
may each step taken is in peace.

unsettled heart,
i got nothing to say to you.
and you, stop shaking my stand. :)

small things to you,
not so small for me :D

Friday, March 26, 2010

dear diary,

dear diary,
do you know that life is not turning as i had expected it to be?
do you know the predicament is almost too hard to bear?
it is obscure.
there wasnt any kind of feud, it just happened.
the mere crack that had seemed so innocent now sneered at me, telling me i was wrong to ignore it.
i am scared and cringed at the painful thought of this impeding situation.
i lamented the loss of that piece of my heart.
do you know that i'd rather feel nothing than pain?
darling, i miss you but i watch you from far, brimming with sadness,
but yet, 
still reluctantly, 

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Tuesday, March 23, 2010

suddenly i see.

today, finally, we are starting our registration for Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia.
i have made my decision to not drop est, but i still need to discuss with my folks tonight.
it's starting to shake me greatly. 
you know, the fact that by the minute, SPM is getting closer and closer.
and the way i'm still wasting oh precious seconds.
i should be slapped silly.

what has been going on since my last post?
well, nothing really.
juz band's performance tym perasmian kts.
i will admit that i had not done so great.
i had a good tan, something that i dont need at all thank you very much.
it was exhausting, but fun in a way. :)

i shall now spill about one high and mighty persona in school.
lets call her the red queen, ruling with no rightful authority and unjust. x)
there were a group of students targeted getting straight A+
they had a short briefing on Sunday.
they were told to drop est since the authorities find it being the killer subject.
now, one of my dears told the event where the red queen's words dissatisfies me.
the red queen to the people :
kamu tak payah la amek est. nnt x dpt A. budak laen2 tuh xpela diorg nk amek. klu dpt est B pon, subjek laen pon dye dpt B.

maybe for some, these words mean absolutely nil.
but here's my point of view.
we, the inverse of the group concerned, might not be your priority.
but we, are still your people o' red queen.
you, should be supporting us, not wait for us to fail.
and thus, the red queen lost my respect for her.

thoughts :

i shall prove o' red queen, that you are in the wrong.

(a totally different subject)
i feel like we've grown apart.
it's hard to explain really.
but still, i miss you much.

currently obsessing over :

Alice in Wonderland 2010's Mad Hatter.
note : i do not like him because he's johnny depp.
I LOVE him because he's half-mad and other stuff i totally admire in this character.


well, you might think, okayy, weeiirrddd.....
mind you, everyone thinks differently, hence the different view on a subject.
and i like what others dont realize yet is worth obsessing over.
whatever it is,
you're not a judge, but if you're gonna judge me.
-and the words are left hanging-
goodbye, love.

Thursday, March 18, 2010

raindrops keep falling on my head

kaijiey dah pegy.. :(
rinduu laa..
hee,, she forgot her india sim card, so she had to buy a new one.
my mom was going nuts when we didnt hear a word from her for 5 days since she took off.
she cried when it was time to go. i didnt, only because i took care not to look at her teary face.
missing her so muchh. tade org nk buli bersame irra dah kat rumahh.
kakak, who's coming back in june is hard to be bullied. hahaa..
terok kann. adek buli kakak. but that's how it is ( except kakak. she bullies all of us)

speaking bout sisters,,
yesterday mse band, cekgu tuh gi ty psl2 smue budak2 yg beradik-bradik antara kami tuhh.
irra and i, of course, kene.
question dye ;
korg gadoh tak kat rumah?
makan dgn ganas tak?
berebot tak mse nk maen piano?
nyanyi dlm tandas?
hahaa,, me and my 'twin' kept our mouths shut.
but laughed like hell when we got back.
siap baling2 bantal (oke yg ne almost everydayyy)
tumbuk2 + tendang2 mcm lawan taekwando
slappings are soo usual

oke, mkn dgn ganas tak laa. care duduk jep ganass..

berebot piano?
often !
tolak2, kne debok blakang, kacau mse tgah maen.
script ;
"weyy, i want to play!"
"i want to play first!"

okayy, nyanyi dlm tandas takkkk.. kat luar adela. dlm bilik and such.

jgn tertipu!
adekku tu sme ganas ngn aku jep. hahahaa !!
and puh-leeze. takde suare?
we scream at each other almost every damn day !
i love my evil twin ! <3

it's always raining now, but when it's not, it's soo hot!
school will be opening soon.
i am in no such mood, but then, i never am :)

also, if i say i dont like her, what would you do?
it's probably nothing really,
but if she keeps making assumptions bout me and thinks and tells that i'm some kind of jealous freak, well, i have a problem with her.
i want her to stay out of whatever is my business.

sheeshh !

eh, maghrib dh. till next time.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

the only exception

And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love
If it does not exist

But darling,
You, are, the only exception

Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now
I had sworn to myself that I'm
Content with loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk

Well, You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

I've got a tight grip on reality
But I can't
Let go of what's in front of me here
I know you're leaving
In the morning, when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream

You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

And I'm on my way to believing
Oh, And I'm on my way to believing

Friday, March 5, 2010

sad :(

i dont get it.
at first you were okay with me being active in koko,
but now you're so mad that i had to hear about it everyday.
i cant take it anymore,
so i had to find a way out.
and that means quitting.

oh please dear God, help.

dear you,
i'm sorry taww.
i fell asleep, and just missed lastnight's planned conversation. :(

Thursday, March 4, 2010


3rd March was Kejohanan Olahraga SMKSS.
it was fun and boring.
highlight :
SS marching band rocked the whole damn field! 
wuuu~ ;)
 pics can be found in my fb, tenx^^

you know how it's funny that you can be sure one minute, and the next,
boom, just like that, you change your mind.
okay, the sound effect 'boom' tuh exaggerating sket ahh. hahahh
well, hesitation exists.
but i suppose time will tell.
i cant help it, dearest, ily.