the reason why i smile.

wow has it really been that long ?
you are now following an official student of IIUM -___-
everyone says it's the best place to study. and an image quickly forms in a person's mind when a student tells where they're from.
i suppose im not all ready, but who is ?
it's so weird to put on an act, to tell yourself over and over when you wake up in the morning that everything will be alright.
question is, can i do this every single day ? i think the day i crumble is dooming close.
i'd say im fine, but in truth, that's one of the commonest lie aint it ?
Lord, give me courage, show me a sign.
Aameen.

saye tak ikhlas x)

ifa nk ckp ne, smpi ifa dpat laptop, ifa tkkan berblogging fr a damn f-ing longggg time.
eh chopp, evn if ad lptop pon tk sure blogging ke tk. baek delete je kn ?
hahaha.

oh one more,

please realize how much you mean to me.

This Little Light of Mine

no one is sure of their future. yes they plan and swear they wont sway, but no one is positively sure, that they would stumble upon something they just had to stop and stare, gawk, or admire.

no one, i tell you, is sure of what they will become.
all we can do is plan, and hope.

in my part,
i have this vague image in my mind, but i know, that some little details, might not just come through.
it's not called being paranoid,
it's called being realistic.

:)

when the sadness engulfs you

hey everybody ! ;)

yes ive disappeared fr quite a bit now. the more bored i get, the lesser i write. weird, time tga busy2 tuh, nk jee tulis smtg kat blog neh.
em, blogging is slowly dying i think. haha. yelaahh. yg generasi yg suke blogging smue tga busy ngn studies nowadays kot. ;D

anddd speaking of studies, ive now a path that is certainly mine to be taken ahead of me.
UIA - Foundation studies. in PJ ! and hopefully stays in PJ -_-"

thoughts ?
erh im freaking out here !!
hello ?! UIA ? not my style ! but hell, it's the place that i need to be according to the freaking course i want.
hahaha !!
weird. imagine me. being this 'alim' type. aaaaa im gonna be one of those jellyfishes ive made fun of last time. huh, serves you right ifa, tulahh. gelak ke org lgi. -_-"

im sadd that my bestIESTS of friends are not as close as i hoped to be. oh well. ttap akan rindu korg ! love you all, hopefully we all are always together at heart :)
feels funny doesnt it ? it feels like just yesterday we were all sitting next to each other nodding off our heads in history class or laughing at our teacher said.
gawd, ill miss all those times. sometimes, i dont ever wanna grow up. i wanna stay like this. at that moment. :')

forever and ever, our hearts will be missing those times. it will slowly dim, but it's still there.
till next time folks, ill write my last post before entering uia, then, id probably write even less.

iloveyou, you know ? and i wish my happy ending is already written and secure. one that has you in it. :)

nothing i say feels..right.

upu result ! i got uia, law, what i wanted.
now, this sick lil poison is spreading in me, can i do it ? what if i sucked ? i didnt want this at first. what if i just totally zonked out ?
what if, what if.
Lord, give Your humble servant some courage, faith and strength.

next;
i just want a time to myself, i mean, even with good news, some other dark matter was shoved into my face.
i dont want to care, it's not my problem. what the hell is going on in here ? T.T

more;

i am sadd, because we are separated. tak bessnyee timahh sy dh tk same kelas ngn sy.
i feel kinda lost i guess.
pstu, awk pon jaoh :(

where'd all the love and smiles go ?

do you know,

you're the main reason for my smile :)

please dont be in love with someone else.

emmm, havent babbled fr a quite a while now. i used to go on and on about crap, dont i ? ;)

frstly, apologies, havent introduced the song i posted earlier properly.
that would be He is We - All About Us.
andd, i love it, besides the fact it's a very sweet song and the vocals just wow me, because well, of you. :D


so hows life ?
boringg. even with a drivers license, i have nowhere to go. well hell, i live in small k.trganu. ;p
em now the one thing im looking forward to would be the class party.
oh please pleasee no complications ! ;) i mean, come onnn, i miss all of them weyhh !
ok next,
a lot of movies im wanting to watch.
but somehow, i cant download any. eishhh -___- annoying you know.


em what else ?
oke i have let myself fall so hard. i doubt that it'll be an easy peasy thing to get up again, if anything happens.
i cant help it, it's just everything about you :)
but i still worry. im super paranoid, sorry.
and, well.
im the kind of person that when something impossibly good happens, i am constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop. :(


okeyh, that's all i suppose.


title ; a line in taylor swift's enchanted :)