nothing i say feels..right.

upu result ! i got uia, law, what i wanted.
now, this sick lil poison is spreading in me, can i do it ? what if i sucked ? i didnt want this at first. what if i just totally zonked out ?
what if, what if.
Lord, give Your humble servant some courage, faith and strength.

next;
i just want a time to myself, i mean, even with good news, some other dark matter was shoved into my face.
i dont want to care, it's not my problem. what the hell is going on in here ? T.T

more;

i am sadd, because we are separated. tak bessnyee timahh sy dh tk same kelas ngn sy.
i feel kinda lost i guess.
pstu, awk pon jaoh :(

where'd all the love and smiles go ?

do you know,

you're the main reason for my smile :)

please dont be in love with someone else.

emmm, havent babbled fr a quite a while now. i used to go on and on about crap, dont i ? ;)

frstly, apologies, havent introduced the song i posted earlier properly.
that would be He is We - All About Us.
andd, i love it, besides the fact it's a very sweet song and the vocals just wow me, because well, of you. :D


so hows life ?
boringg. even with a drivers license, i have nowhere to go. well hell, i live in small k.trganu. ;p
em now the one thing im looking forward to would be the class party.
oh please pleasee no complications ! ;) i mean, come onnn, i miss all of them weyhh !
ok next,
a lot of movies im wanting to watch.
but somehow, i cant download any. eishhh -___- annoying you know.


em what else ?
oke i have let myself fall so hard. i doubt that it'll be an easy peasy thing to get up again, if anything happens.
i cant help it, it's just everything about you :)
but i still worry. im super paranoid, sorry.
and, well.
im the kind of person that when something impossibly good happens, i am constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop. :(


okeyh, that's all i suppose.


title ; a line in taylor swift's enchanted :)

He Is We ft. Aaron Gillespie

Take my hand, I’ll teach you to dance.
I’ll spin you around, won’t let you fall down.
Would you let me lead, you can step on my feet.
Give it a try, it’ll be alright.

The room’s hush, hush,
And now’s our moment.
Take it in feel it all and hold it.
Eyes on you, eyes on me.
We’re doing this right.

Cause lovers dance when they’re feeling in love.
Spotlight shinning, it’s all about us.
It’s oh, oh, all,
About uh, uh, us.
And every heart in the room will melt,
This is a feeling I’ve never felt but,
It’s oh, oh, all about us.

Suddenly, I’m feeling brave.
Don’t know what’s got into me,
Why I feel this way.
Can we dance, real slow?
Can I hold you, real close?

The room’s hush, hush,
And now’s our moment.
Take it in feel it all and hold it.
Eyes on you, eyes on me.
We’re doing this right.

Cause lovers dance when they’re feeling in love.
Spotlight shinning, it’s all about us.
It’s oh, oh, all,
About uh, uh, us.
And every heart in the room will melt,
This is a feeling I’ve never felt but,
It’s oh, oh, all about us.

Do you hear that love?
They’re playing our song.
Do you think we’re ready?
Oh I’m really feeling it.
Do you hear that love?
Do you hear that love?

Do you hear that love?
They’re playing our song.
Do you think we’re ready yet?
Love I’m really feeling it.
Do you hear that love?
Do you hear that love?

Do you hear that love?
They’re playing our song.
Do you think we’re ready yet?
Love I’m really feeling it.
Do you hear that love?
Do you hear that love?

Lovers dance when they’re feeling in love.
Spotlight shinning, it’s all about us.
It’s all, all, all, all.
Every heart in the room will melt,
This is a feeling I’ve never felt,
But it’s all about us.

Cause lovers dance when they’re feeling in love.
Spotlight shinning, it’s all about us.
It’s oh, oh.
(hey-ey hey)
And every heart in the room will melt,
This is a feeling I’ve never felt but,
It’s oh, oh, all,
It’s all about us.

everytime, i think of you :)

Al-Fatihah.. :(

ifa ingat dulu mase form 1, ifa tegur arwah izzi, ifa cakap kat dye, kakak ifa pon ifa panggil izy, same la kan ? arwah senyum je, ejaan laen lah.


you were one of the kindest friend i knew.
i remember a couple of times i'd be at the piano while you were playing the drums. then, you were already amazing.
my regret was thinking that with all the time we've got, there would sure be a time where i'll be able to meet you, apologize and talk again after 3 years of not meeting.


losing a friend, close or not, it hurts, because you know that there was that time where you shared a joke, where you smiled at each other, both shared rage, or pain.


to my friends, be strong.
arwah's family, may God give you strength and peace.


Izzi Hanafi Noordin, you were a great person, and as much as we love you, Allah SWT loves you more.
Al-Fatihah, semoga ditempatkan di kalangan orang yang beriman.

dont answer the phone.

sorry, the person you are calling, is currently unavailable.
please live a message after the tone.


-beeeeppp-


hye, this is my personalized message, ignore the previous one.
i am ifa and i am no answering your call on purpose, that would be because i dont know your number. so if you really do know me, send a text.
i am screening all unknown number calls because of what happened when i answered a phone call at approximiately 6.15pm 19th Apr.
A maniac called me and scared the *beep* out of me.
I now feel insecure, unsafe, and still a little shaky.
It might be nothing to you, but i never, want to have to face that again.
I think that's all.
So, um, leave a message.


-beeeppp-

anxiety.

is it that time ?
the time to be so anxious and depressed because of rejection ?
will i get what i want ?
losing my backup plan, now what do i rely on ?

dammit, why's everything going so wrong these days -_-