flaws :)

nobody is perfect. ?
well actually, perfection, oh it comes from people's views. if you think that person is perfect, it's to your eyes, while to him/her, they'll be like, ' noo, see my nose is to straight' or, i'm not smart enough.'
wait, i think i had just gone rightt over my point.
okayy, backup a lil bit.

okay, my flaws ;
im short ;)
im chubby O.O
i dont give much alert or attention to things around me that dont stand out.
i ponder and get stressed over problems that are sometimes, not even mine.
i get soo down when i do the above.
i have like a very short temper. means -- i get mad veryyy easily. but only show it to people who knows me well ;p
im emotionally unstable haha !
i usually cover up my feelings -- like if im in a foul mood, i dont give a hint until well probably the end of the day when the tension just kept crushing me down that i feel like i cant breathe.
em more ?
ngehh, some other day, just ask ;p




current problem -- i think sometime in the future i might just need glasses. my eye colour is getting lighter by day ! O-O

vacation from yourself :)

why ? am ? i ? so? crazy ? enough ? to ? think ? that ? i'll ? have ? fun ?

fun kee ? it's a change of atmosphere. it's a change of company. no one is observant enough. no one knows me. soo yeahh, in a way, fun, but lonely.
you cant enjoy without company.
oh well,
at least im free from a bit of tension fr a lil while.
ive been wayyy crappy fr this few weeks, i mean like, in a minute, i could suddenly be in a temper.
so, im now neutral. im switzerland !
thanks, im being more patient now. ;D

to say, i love you.

it's becoming so easy, because i mean it everytime, without a doubt, without hesitation, without fear.
i dont say it, unless i mean it.
the unguessable future, now i'm going to head on to it. maybe not at full speed, but with more faith.
while our lives are now changing, evolving towards unfamiliarity,
i hope our hearts stay the very same :)

i love you with the most part of my heart, if not all of it. <3

fear and tears.

i havent said a thing about my results on my blog. emm, is it because i was dissapointed ? well maybe a little. i didnt expect to be so close. but then, have you any idea how low my expectations were ? so even if it's not the best anyone can hope for, i am grateful and satisfied. heck, i never wanted to be burdened with all those science subjects anyways. -- downside of going to SS ;)

anyways,
so now life is all about scholarships, and colleges, and courses.
while getting caught up in these, i havent realised that by doing this, i was finally saying farewell to whatever life i had before. imagine, im turning 18, hell i still feel like a kid, helpless, hopeless.

hopeless ?
ive been feeling that for the past several days. probably one of the reasons i was so nervous during my driving test that i bumped the pole. i never, bump the poles. -__-"
but Alhamdulillah i passed the road test. :D

fear, is a powerful thing. heading on to a new life, there might be some things that i have to drop off on the way.
my wish ? that you're not one of it, but instead, walk right by me :)

tears. mostly due to the rising tension and confusion.
i need a minute to breathe from everything that's happening in this house. :(

mou doushite ?

im not myself when i am confused.
im not myself when i am sad.
im being not myself for a while now.

When you care more if someone else lives than you do about yourself...is that what love's like ? - Kate Fitzgerald ; My Sister's Keeper.

i cant tell why, but this song made me cry today :(

DBSK - Why Did I Fall In Love With You

Doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou?

 the last verse especially is so sad ;
 
 Sore demo kimi ga boku no soba nara to itte mo
Eien ni kimi ga shiawase de iru koto
Tada negatteru
Tatoe sore ga donna ni sabishikutemo 

meaning ;

But, even though I say that I need you close to me
I just pray that you will be happy forever
No matter how lonely that makes me (or how sad)

Hey presto ! ;D

ehh i havent online for quite a while you know ! and my first post ; something tagged by Alia Delaila aka Ashley ! ;)

a. Adakah awak rasa awak hot ?

 - nawhhh. im ice cold bebeh ! hahaha x)

b. Upload pic anda dari PC sekarang.

woww, jupe this pic the other day. 

c. Cerita pasal gambar itu.

 - err sy form 2 mse ne ! havent changed much have i ? :(

d. Bila kali terakhir anda makan ayam ?

 - err last two nights. chicken supreme pizza ! bday cheah bday cheah ! ;DD

e. Apa yang anda buat selain dari menyelesaikan tag ini ?

 - Facebookingg, songs, typical things i do onlinee ;)

f. Lagu terakhir yang anda dengar ?

 - The Wanted - Heart Vacancy ! ahhh damn damn ! Nathan sooo cuteee xD

g. Selain dari nama sendiri, anda dipanggil dengan nama apa ?

- ifa, fa, husna, ifahusna, si kuneng ! ;)

h. Tag  lagi lapan orang !

 - err aci dk tag org same ? saje jee, tk pkse rakan2 membuat ea ;)

Aziemaa timahh

Cheahh 

Alia

Miwa

Haziqq

Atenn

Tirahh sani

Aina Nadiahhh

i. Siapakah nombor satu ?

 - Tuan puteri kesayangan sy ! lebiuu timahh :D

j. Cakap sesuatu pasal nombor lima.

 - cookie monster yg mengadee ;)

k. Nombor tiga ada hubungan dengan siapa ?

 - err dye share alex pettyfer dengan sy ! ;DD

l. Bagaimana dengan budak nombor empat ?

 - taktahuu. but im praying for her safety, she's now at the Holy Land. mish youu miwa ;)

m. Pesanan buat nombor enam ?

 - cari lagi byk frogs aten syg ! x)

n. Kata kata cinta buat nombor dua ?

 - fuyyoo! err, sy sygg awk cheahh yg sudah legal ! ;DD

o. Berikan lima perkara yang anda tahu mengenai nombor satu ?

 - orang melake ! jawa babe ! anak pak wahab ! ade citer complicated ngn si die ! syg sy ! hahaha ;D

p. Persamaan kambing dengan lembu ?

 - binatang anam, err, mangse2 korban. XD

q. Adakah anda tahu Rizman itu sengal ?

 - haa ? sape tuuu ? emm, ye ye. *wat tahu jelahh.

r. Gay or Lesbo ?

 - dudee, sy ade cookie monster sy lahh. ngeh3 x)

umm, im practically nodding my head off. esok keje ! chiao amigos ;)

to you ; aihh. be a scary monster, whatever you wanna be, i'll adoree you anyway. heeeee.

* mlm2 ne sy sensitive sket. in other words, close to jiwang. hahaha.