you make me laugh, you make me cry.

em first and foremost, hoping that you dont read this. i'd die of shame. haha :p

3days. not whole. not too short. not enough either.
how can it be enough ?
i cant get enough of seeing you smile - at me, for me, with me.
i cant forget the things you say that just make me blush and smile.
i cant believe how head over heels i am still over you.

bet you have no idea how torn inside i felt when i had to watch you leave.
bet you didnt know that was why i turned away before i could see you disappear from my view.
bet you didnt know that the moment you stepped away from me, i already miss you.

and now facing this week is almost unbearable.
i did say almost, right ?
more tearworks than ever been.

impatient :)

dear tomorrow,

please come quick.

im getting fidgety rickety ditty itty bitty.

i bet when you arrive, id be constantly glancing at the watch.

i bet ill be rocking the chair during my last class.

so as much as i love you tomorrow,

i am disheveled by you.

with love,

:)

Bilik 109C :)

i've realized that i havent actually told of the parts that actually made me love this place.
so here goes.
my room !
i have 3 roomates. - sini ade konflik, jgn ditanye.
the two craziest + havoc people i've ever known :

Sitti Nurul Ain Sahidah

Zafira Zainal

haa duorg ne kan,

dalam satu hari tak buat aku gelak kuat2 smpi saket perot,

tak sah hidop ! xD

masing2 slalu ade jee nk jodohkan each other ngn org ne la, tu lah.

si makcik fira tuh ngn ustaz arab kesayangan. 

eh tapi ade one more choice,

abg musa Ain Nanak lol ;D

si SiTTi Ain ne tak boleh blah.

betape ramaaaiiii nye bakal tunang die. HAHA

Mamak bistro lah, Abg Dean lah, Ustaz Amirul lah.

Sape lagi kau nak ea ? x)

nseb ifa selamat bab tu :DDD

 but ! :)

my room is also now an unofficial home for 3 more insane! people !

Anis Artis Anihh

Farah Froggie

Atun Eton KakTonn

nak kate diorg ne waras,

masok bilik ne, maken havoc bilik adelahh ;D

dekat tiap2 malam squatting ( term sini utk crashing at another's room )

hehehh.

naseb korg2 ne best, lau tak hari2 ifa kne halau korg kuar,

ade ke patot ? ifa boleh gelak2 smpi tido skali angkara korg ne ! piiiraaahh ! x)

err.

disebabkan smue budak2 ne loyar burok habesan,

habes famous bilik neh !

paling bising,

paling famous dgn pelawat,

dgn sukaann pakai shorts lagi.

we even received the privileged visit from a fellow. hardcore tak kami ? xD

fikir balek kan,

sbb bnde ne je dah kene chop budak2 bermasalah. syal ah, puihh !

heh screw this. aak ? x)

emm in class ?

well everyone's cool and sporting enough.

but yeahh, a different environment hence me feeling pressured.

makes me feel like me being in the first class when im supposed to be in the last back in my old high school. -_-"

get an idea to it ?

oh well.

im coming to accept this new life. funny, im now a constant rule-breaker though. haha;)

em that's all :)

settle down, heart.

miss you

felt dreadful

gotten used to missing you

doing fine

suddenly

miss you so much now

hurts too much

 heart breaking

but

i love you

so i endure missing you.

Kalau Ade Jodoh, Kite Jupe Lagi :)

to those who watched the movie, or the trailer even, you'd know straight away who said the above title/phrase/dialogue/whateverr.
*comel kan ? ;D

em emm.
im actually trying to delay from completing my ILH workbook. damnnn, if i could get a wish, i'd wish to have laziness removed from my system. :p
anywhoo, what do i want to talk about ?
ditch more about my life here ?
worldwide problems ?
midsemexaminations ?

and there you go, the laziness disease had just engulfed me.
i'll just summarise those questions above with this;

these sucked so damn much.

em emmm. kbaii :p

Missing : Dont Find Me

am i supposed to tell that i've finally feel comfortable in this place ? wait scratch that. this new life.
something in me has broken. i feel so weird. mood swings all the time.
one moment i'm all smiles, next i feel like snapping at the person who irritated me.
what am i supposed to say ? what am i supposed to do ? what am i supposed to feel ?
cause i feel nothing anymore.

the reason why i smile.

wow has it really been that long ?
you are now following an official student of IIUM -___-
everyone says it's the best place to study. and an image quickly forms in a person's mind when a student tells where they're from.
i suppose im not all ready, but who is ?
it's so weird to put on an act, to tell yourself over and over when you wake up in the morning that everything will be alright.
question is, can i do this every single day ? i think the day i crumble is dooming close.
i'd say im fine, but in truth, that's one of the commonest lie aint it ?
Lord, give me courage, show me a sign.
Aameen.