experience is a brutal teacher.

i've never been one to have a lot of patience. 
as i typed these words, anxiousness bites me and the knowledge of having to wait one more day tortures me in the most uncomfortable way.
15th December could not have possibly come any slower - not that i look forward to it head on, there is always that sadness, looming over you.

the last paper will signify the point where i am no longer called a schoolgirl.
i have to grow up, watch myself now, not always relying on someone wiser, braver or stronger to be there to make sure i shan't stray from my path.

i can take care of myself, can i ?

there are so many things that i have now, that i treasure, never once wanting to let go of my grip on them. 
question is, are they real? or are they just masquerading, lulling me into a false sense of security. how can one ever be sure ?
but then i thought, no one's ever sure. we just have to put ourselves out there, so experience can be our teacher now.

so i'll wear my uniform for probably the last time on the 15th, sadly, and happily.

beautiful years, they were.
even if i had my worst crying fits.
even if i had seen people walk away from me.
even if i thought i could never heal from some wounds.
but they are the years that made me who i am now.

and i am truly, undoubtedly, grateful.


i dont know what exactly prompted me to write this. maybe just checking if i had gone a little rusty ?

wish me luck for EST :)

"Experience is a brutal teacher. But we learn. My God, we learn." - C.S.Lewis

And I'll say just fine

I dont really care what most people say, Taylor Swift's songs are still superbly sweet and meaningful. They're like something you want to tell someone else, but just couldnt find the right words.

So screw all critics, her new album have some rocking songs ;)

 

note ; I'm not so sure if this song is really in her album Speak Now.

 Superman - Taylor Swift

Tall dark and superman, he puts papers in his briefcase and drives away
To save the world or go to work- it's the same thing to me
He's got his mothers eyes, his fathers ambition
I wonder if he knows how much that I miss him
I hang on to every word you say, and you smile and say how are you?
And I'll say just fine.
I always forget to tell you I love you. I'll love you forever

-Chorus-
I watched Superman fly away
You got a busy day today
Go save the world
I'll be around
And I watched superman fly away
Come back I'll be with you some day
I'll be right here on the ground
When you come back down

Tall, dark and beautiful, he's complicated, he's irrational
But I hope someday he'll take me away and save the day, yeh
Something in his deep brown eyes has me saying,
He's not all bad like his reputation
And I can't hear one single word they say.
You'll leave, got places to be and I'll be OK
I always forget to tell you I love you
I loved you from the very first day

-CHORUS-

And I watch you fly around the world
And I hope you don't take some other girl
Don't forget, don't forget about me
I'm far away but I never let you go
I'm love struck and looking out the window
Don't forget, don't forget where I'll be
Right here wishing the flowers were from you,
Wishing the card was from you wishing the call was from you
'Cause I've loved you from the very first day

-CHORUS-

When you come back down

acting ;)

saye bajet saye habes dah spm ! :)

first tyme kot, time jawab soalan akaun rase benci yg meluap-luap.
ahaha
haihh akaun 2, napelaa ko wat kusut otak ambe ?
i'm kinda really relying on my akaun 1 now, since hopefully, i scored it.

sigh.
if i dont get a good grade for accounts,
i wont be able to apply for what i want in the near future :'(
huh, ibu pujuk lam kete tadi, nanges kott hahaaa.


oh well.
please God, soften the hearts of our examiners. :)

just , don't :(

funny, i thought coming close to the end of spm, nothing could make sad.
i'm proven wrong, happy now ?

so the past is not important enough.
we're so different with each other now.
you've changed? or was it me ?
i dont know. i really dont.
if you really want nothing to do with me, - us - anymore. just say the word.

we can be complete strangers.

saya tahu saya salah, saya tahu awak marah dengan saya tapi saya tak tahu kenape.
saya mntak maaf.

takpelah,

nice knowing you :(

acid and bases ?

yes yes yes !
chemy is overr ;))
the subject i freaking least like, hahahh
tapi bez la pulak jwab tadii. hahahh masehh pokjakk. spot smue kene ! like tirah said, " takkan tak caye pokjak ? "
hahaa. i believe i believe ! ;)


goodbyee chemyy ! <3

jeng3 !

why why ?

ABAH BALEKK !!

yes ! souvy2 ! -- mcm abah pndai jee shopping -_-"

hahahh,
abah called a couple days ago,
he said it was snowing in france - ugh jealous ;( - and he was freezing and impatient to be in hot malaysia.
hurm, though i wont say malaysia's that hot now.
ugh, cold all the time, i wear my fave hoodiee every minute - ceyh, exaggerating !

3.30 pick up abah kat airport nnti !

ifa rindu abah ! :)

15th, please please come quickly:)

yes yes, SPM is soo not done yet.
i have 3 papers left though.
Chemy, Acc and EST ! im kinda tired of the books now, so taking a break. hee~
all my previous papers, well not bad. but i cant say A+ is in my hands. :(
well, i did my best, just hope it was enough.

recent quote found and liked !

Chuck Bass : Dont leave. Everybody leaves.